Random thoughts of an evening

One creator you all agree but the unity stops there.
Different laws govern all as if the one omnipotent being
couldn't make up his mind on how things should be run.
He gave you strength through reasoning and
frailty through questions unanswered; faith
to bolster you and choices to test that faith;
differences to confound you; sameness
to allow you to question those differences.

Actions are defined by belief. Who is right?

As the end approaches and you cry out
to your god, who do you think he will attend?
Do you think the divisions created outside
his realm will stand? Will you be praised or
condemned for basing your existence on
your version of what shall remain a mystery
to you all? Will you be forgiven for refusing to
discern his divine truth from man's truth
altered throughout the ages? Will he understand
acts performed in his name where you did
not first remove your own selfish motivations?
~

The distance, no longer today than yesterday,
seems as endless as the untouchable horizon
and yet you are there and I am here, our bodies
anchored, our thoughts free to traverse the divide,
our emotions encouraged by memories shared.

Moments missed
Moments unshared
Moments irretrievable

Is it enough? How long will it be enough?
~

Actions and reactions, what good do they do?
Chaos reigns and madness remains.
Anger unresolved, hatred allowed to grow,
seething hurt churns within until compelled to show.
Society's vicitms. America's lost.
~

Two strangers.
One heart.

Threshold of a beginning.
~

What is real?
What is imagined?
Do we feel because it's
what we want to feel?
Are our emotions
superimposed by our
desire, our need?
Does our imagining them
make them real?
~

Expletives designed to emphasize
a point or an emotion were not meant
to encompass a person's entire vocabulary.
It makes you so very uninteresting.
~

Scavengers
unwanted, unexpected
hidden from view
revealed suddenly
by the destruction
of their seclusion.

Intruders
into my repast
and on into my
subconscious where
they will again hide
from view only to
be revealed by whatever
catalyst awakens
the memory.

Nauseators
which cause my
stomach to churn
and bile to rise
in rejection of the
meal shared with them;
their entryway into
cellophane unnoticed
until too late.

Scurriers
emerging from their
edible lodge
fearing my presence
even as I desire
to avoid theirs.
Would that we had
never had opportunity
to become aware of
one another's existence.
~

What he doesn't say
rebounds through the
silent apartment.
What he doesn't say
knocks at the recesses
of his mind seeking release.
What he doesn't say
creates mystery, distance,
an open door.

She turns and walks through it.

~

She led them away from her young;
sacrificing her life for their own.

That is a mother.

~
CNRR
The day's pace dictates
that I avoid you.
Your unexpected arrival
disturbs the flow.
My thoughts center
now that you hold me.
The cacophony muted
by unseen barriers.

Neither coincidence,
nor deja vu.
Other human hands
have known you.
Their expressions left
as marks upon you.
Some of which
I recognize.

You are familiar
to me.

Your journeys
along the peripheral
of my existence
leave me yearning
to go with you.

~

Hesitantly ascending the incline

Closer, ever closer the apex approaches.

Anticipation simmers and the yearning builds;

breathing deepens becoming as erratic as the

heart.

You brace yourself, holding on.

Wanting, but afraid to let go.

`

Reaching the peak,

Paused on the brink of infinity,

Seeing beyond expectations,

teetering on top of the world,

All thought suspended and senses attuned,

Your contentment awakens

`

In an infinitesimal moment when

your heart stills its beating

breath catches in your throat

body tenses and holds

and realization of the

impending

uncertain

free-falling

descent

hits you.

`

You accept and let go.

Overwhelmed by sensations, you want to stay,

savor the moment, the experience,

and allow yourself time to mold

the memory into a lasting testament to

your ability to overcome fear and live.

`

Back down to earth,

your breathing resumes, heart steadies its rhythm

and you're infused with the warm rush

of life's sustaining fluid and embrace the

moment,

the one you're with, and become

enveloped in consummate satisfaction.

`

Roller coasters are an experience!