Proactive thinking

That is sooo false a title! LOL I need to think and yet I'm just not quite able to...at least not clearly. I've got too much going on in my head and it won't sort itself. It's been this way since before Christmas and, with everything going on, I've been just out of it.

I need to do a lot of thinking and I need to set some direction to my life this year so that it's an improvement over the last. Not that there was anything horrendous about 2007 but it could have been better.

I think it's totally a matter of deciding exactly what you want and planning the steps to get you there. What I want may not happen in 2008 but I'd like to get to the end of the year and know that I've directed my life and not just let the days pass aimlessly by. Some are okay. All 365 days gone with no achievement of any goals is just too sad.

Knowing what you want is one thing. Discarding those things which hold you back are another. You can't just discard the people in your life, especially kids, and you can't discard a job when the market is slow enough not to guarantee another one. You can't discard the life you have even if you sometimes want to walk away from it without looking back. So, I have to figure out how to seamlessly incorporate what I want into what I've got and find a fine balance for it all.

Yes, I know I'm saying a lot without saying anything at all but it's also how my mind is right now. I guess the point is that I have to get a life which revolves around me. If I wait for things to happen, I'll still be sitting here at the end of 2008 no closer to what I want than I am today. I wasn't going to let that happen in 2007 but children, more than anything else, sidetracked plans and that's okay for now. I'm hoping that things are better for them this year so that they can be for me. The daughter will be graduating her college courses and the son will be back home getting his life on track, Lord willing. After the first quarter, I should be able to gain some momentum. It's what I'm hoping anyway.

My wants are few, thank goodness, so I should be able to make some headway. First, though, are lists to make (as Denise is always reminding me ) and a starting point. If I have to make things happen, then it's time to begin.

So much for the less than cohesive thoughts from this less than stellar mind. : ) My visits online will most likely be sporadic for a little while but I'll soon get it together.

Have a wonderful, safe week, everyone.